I'm

at

WAR

with

MYSELF.

I seriously fking hate this when it happens, my selfish side seriously hates when this fking thing happens. again and again and again but the side where i'm a boyfriend says that well its her own life, let her do anything. but still.. fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fucck.

i think i need to get to know myself better.

I just came back from my cousin's funeral.
she was just only 18 years old, the same age as i.
it kinda shocked me.
her death was natural but it was a crappy way to go.
guess you could do nothing when death comes for ye.
i feel kinda sad for her family as her father just came out of the hospital
after her dad's feet was amputated.
anyway, life has to go on. << this statement sucks.

I watched 2012 already!
the show's effects was WOAHHHHHHH and if you have nightmares about the world ending,
that show can really traumatise you. Seeing LA fall down like that and whole chunks of continents sinking was kinda scary.
I recommend ya to watch it. Its 2 hour smth but the show grabs you by your
ballsackeries and doesn't let go till the end.